Why Can’t I…

Its the end of the another month and what have I got to show to it. I have sat by the past couple of weeks and just watched as my world goes by, watched as others go by with there lives.
I noticed that moving from one blog to another was a lot more work than I had planned seeing as I keep thinking of new things all the time then I end up fighting with myself about it, which puts my mood on a biggest downer. Take my images, All been re-done and there tagged to my other domain, so I have to do them over again. I have been missing this place. I don’t mean moaning about rubbish to you all, I miss blogging, telling my story. Which does involve a lot of moaning, but I am a 100% #moanermum Even the kids father tells and reminds me of that. While I have watched my world go by some things have happened to me, to my family that has brought us closer. It may not of been for long, but having a feeling of family being there is such an amazing feeling. So to now be back as I am now, alone with my kids while I look after my mum kinda makes me feel lonely again. Is this the reason I created my online self, due to being lonely.
I have based myself online on hope, dreams and wishes that I am yet to fulfill, yet to start, yet to plan. I know as it is the world wide web that there are so many motivational sayings, and images to help get you going, they somewhat depress me and make me feel stupid that I even look to them. I will be saying this post as yet another draft to then be opened when I finally get myself together and open the blog. The countdown has already begun…