Forgive me readers, for I have sinned. I have yet again failed you all in more ways than one. I have yet again found a way to hide away form the worry and stress of what it is that I create for you either to watch or read… or laugh about and share the failure with your friends. I have not had the best of weeks. I have watched as my mum got worse and has been put back into hospital yet again due to her heart. I am at that stage where carrying on is all I have left to live for, mainly because my mum asked it from me. Should I be as worried as I am being. You only have one mum… So I am not sure if I will be able to keep to what my plan is till I know she alright. Family come first and seeing as she is going for an operation I feel that being with her and the family is important. If I am able to get a post out or a new video I will try my best to do that but I feel I should tell you that I have failed you and I don’t think I will ever find a place in my life to do what I want to do. Maybe I was destined to do all this back in the day I could of, but now I am past my time.